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i dont get how the first person who doesnt swoon over me makes me starts to make me question myself. makes me get so flustered that i dont even know how to pretend to have it all together. yet if he were like before, like passed ones...groveling...pathetic...i'd dust him off faster than ever. how do i have such an inconsistency for this. i suck at this so much.
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[20 Feb 2006|01:03pm] |
life is so much better.
a little slow today..its a monday. understandable.
im in the last four/five months of school...foooorever. eeeek happy.
im so in love.
i have a different outlook on things. for the better.
i still need yuma. and hopefully i'll get my fill soon.
mmm that is all.
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[22 Dec 2005|12:18am] |
speechless.
today.perfect.
backseat christmas.perfect.
knowing who you'd stop at nothing to be with. priceless
ahaaaaa. youre sappy.
soooohooo what.
mmm eyes are beat.
ew i feel sick.like i dont have any symptoms but i managed to get the appearance of having a deadly flu. uuuugh.achy heaaaad.
i cannot wait till 2006
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[02 Dec 2005|03:00pm] |
weeeelllllll mm im hungry.
its winter...i hate winter..but i looooooooove christmas. maybe even more than halloween. em nevermind.
i had a hellish morning.
i havent been really talking to anyone lately. its making me feel poopy. it might just be my mood. or my new found anger management problems since i flipped out when my brother finished the last of the milk for breakfast! you just dont do that! i overreacted. so what.
i miss talking to you alllll night. sleepyhead.
joe koon died. ive never experienced anything like that before. ive never known a teenager personally thats died. its the most horrible thing. but it makes you think. it makes you appreciate more. he was a really sweet guy. was always there. :) always gave me lunch money. even if i was being a complete brat to him. he called himself my official "girlfriend" since we were both single and this gave us some satisfaction. he always gave me big smiles and waves when i saw him. its crazy how you can remember when you want to. i'll miss him.
update on my parents..yep still insane. sooo therefore ive decided i want to move out as soon as possible. even if thats in a year. i know what i have to do...and as soon as im financially stable...PEEEEACE. im out. i can make it on my own?
i have to pee
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[01 Nov 2005|04:03pm] |
oh boy..
its just sad how happy i've been lately.
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[21 Oct 2005|06:49pm] |
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today was a goooood/fun day. except for the lack of a visit from a certain someone.
i had cake.
so good altogether.
work is ridiculous i need a new job. ugh...hm..hustler here i come.
i like everything right now. things are looking up for me. im so happy im a senior its unnnnbelievable. i feel sorry for the non-seniors. really. i want to tell them to quit now. it sucks. haaaha but i dooont.
is it bad to make plans for the future so soon? i always thought it was because i have this incredible knack for getting let down. so maybe i shouldnt. but its nice to think about. <3
i have a car. why cant i sneek a drive to yuma? could it beeee that hard? maybe i should start slow and actually drive on the freeways. scaredy cat.
tomarrow is haunted house fun downtown! im excited. i like being scared. i effin love halloween! i love candy corn! and i'll admit it!
you rock my world
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[11 Oct 2005|03:39pm] |
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so homecoming was an effin blast! couldnt ask for more. well i mean duh, course i could of. but with what i've got here. it was awesome.
finally at the reach of technology! my work got its computers back ..not so much for my house..but we're working on it.
these days have been so eeeeh. nothing seems to be flooowing. i dont think thats even the word for what im trying to describe. but you get my drift.
people that annoy me suck.
people that get mad at me suck.
mean people suck.
weird guys suck.
not being sure of something im sure will be great sucks.
i dont want to fall into that mood again. nope. no way.i wont let myself.
i need school to be over.
i want to live a life outside of what im doing now.
with you.
dont get me wrong.i know im confusing.its alright.i dont expect you to understand
ew. im so dramatic.
i love green tea with ginseng and honey. THE best.
spread the love.
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[20 Sep 2005|05:34pm] |
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dude what is up with this weather! its insane! weather weather weather.
im at work. i only do this stuff when im here. if the people knew what i was doing they'd be all over this shiiiit. but im a computer hog so eff everyone.
im so hungry. randall just beat the shit out of the vending machine when it didnt cough up my snackwells.
i have 20 minutes till i get off. sunday was the best day ever. i want to go hoooome
i want to go to a really good concert. if i could make up a concert of all my favorite bands...i would so go to it. hmm. i need to start making sense when i talk. sunday was the best day ever.ya ya ya.
this is one of the most random pointless posts ever...buuuut i'd rather do this than stare at a computer solitaire game again. i hate that game!
haha..my boss just tried to make small talk with me. he's weird when he talks to me other than telling me to go scrape gross stuff off the pool deck.
i'll stop talking about work.
hooomecoming! im kinda excited? we're getting a limo. i've never been in one. except this one time in holtville when this ghetto..but pimped out limo accessorized with hydraulics picked up me and my cousin.okay story time over.
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oh and btw. sunday should be today.
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[13 Sep 2005|03:11pm] |
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i was just researching some homework and got extreeeeemely bored so i decided to take a detour to livvvvejournal!
the death of christina almost happend...
i accidently got on the freeway today....enough said.
so its official. im going to homecoming. it should be fun. im going with people i enjoy. of course theres definately going to be a little something missing. hmmm date! ahh weell. wait..this means i have to fend for myself! i've never bought my own ticket before. man.
hmmm today was a good day. it went by like speeeeding fast.
muahaaaaaa haaaaa
i love my computer. like love love. like i want to take advantage of it in ways never though possible.
wtf? shut up.
byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye
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mmmm im at work.. and i seriously want to punch somebody in the face right now. yeeeep its a weird feeling. it shouldnt be happening
um i miss yuma more than ever right now. and school sucks. but uhhh duh. i aaam meeting a vast amount of new people though. and i like it. friends are good.
homecomings riiight around the corner. and i think i've decided against it. who knows though.
im still happy? dont get me wrong...but i dont know. im definately in this awkward mood. okay how the hell do you spell that word! i dont think anybody knows for sure. jeeze. but who has the time to listen to me whine?... ya thats what i thought.
ah you know what i just decided. i want to steal somebody right from there room and go far far away. and that certain somebody better like it! i think that will make me feel better right now. isnt it weird how you can be in the freakiest mood and just the thought of someone can make it go poof! by that i mean it goes away. and thats the coolest feeling. uhhh im not saying that happens to meee im just saying. :)
am i out of line to say that i miss you?
my eyes are stinging. its too early. too early for anyone to function exactly.
oh and dandizzle likes his junk. or something like that.
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i think i just fell asleep while lifeguarding...its okay...kids are still alive and kicking.
im happy.
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[31 Jul 2005|08:54pm] |
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OH MY GOODNESS! IM SO HAPPY..I COULD....SKIP!
....but i dont want to jinx it....
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man oh man. ive completely ditched livejournal. poor journal.. no action in weeks. ha well same for me. ;) oh well.
i did the crazzziest thing yesterday...i ran all the way to my sisters house,mid-day, up-hill...insane! its like uhhh 25 min. run. and of course i walked most of the way...em did i mention up freaking hill! i nearly died. for reals.
hmmm. ericas here today! @#$%^&**($%$! but at a baseball game...so im here...waiting.
you know what i hate? is when somebody asks you... "hey christina, how are you" and all i have to say is " uhh...good" and i really mean it. like, nothign good or bad or with any significance has happend to me. so i cant complain or be all giddy about. so all i can come up with that explains how i am is good. its the suckiest thing ever. i need something to go off of.
whateeeeever.
hey! i got a new pic for my beloved LJ. thought i'd give it an update or two.
STREET SCENE is tonight. guess whos not there...mmm me. guess who is...mmm dayna! uuuuugh. noooot a happy one i am. okay well when i mean nothings happend..i really mean nothings happend. sooo smell ya later...
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hmmmm...
sooo...
rammed my car into my motorhome. fucking shit.
smoked hookah for the first time at jessicas... :D ...i think im obsessed. (soooorry amanda)
i was going to spend the night at jessicas..but given the fact that im knee deep in alot of shit with my parents..that wasnt going to happen...oh yah! i almost forgot...they all had there boyfriends spend the night! eff that!i'd rather sleep alone in the comfort of my own home thank you. so i passed on that one.
im having some fun this summer. its good. but..i want so much more. yeah. theres always a but. when can i just be satisfied.
talked to erica yesterday...listening to her talk about her troubles makes me miss even having troubles with someone. i do wish i could help her more. theres a strange familiarity of what she's going through.
i miss the hell out of amanda. i miss the hell out of a few. i cant stand this distance.
good thing i cant spend money for awhile
i've been dying to see you...
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i love sundays. i just woke up. its 6:49 in the afternoon. siiiiigh.
kim left this morning. i think she need a break from california. she was a liiiitle overwhelmed from my friends.and there openness of sex,drugs,hookahs,parties bla bla bla. but i know she had a good time. we were never home. it was the greatest ever. okay...i'll show you the events that took place.
*thursday.we went to the beach the day she came, then came home and went mall hoppin
*friday.we went to the beach again, because another of my friends wanted to go with us. so we couldnt pass that up. and then that night we went to the Del Mar Fair, took pictures in photobooths and went on super high rides that i wouldnt let go of kimmies hand. so she has night nail imprints on her hand as a souvenior. and we got matching tattoo thingies from this psycho "dracula man" that kept telling us to shut up. and took pictures at the end of the night in front of the lights with the camera guy constantly saying sex to make us smile. it was weird hahaaa... and then rented CLOSER and spent the night at my friends house.
*saturday. we went to the ZOO with jessie and her boyfriend after i treated them for jamba juice and got lost downtown. the zoo was a blast...and we're pretty sure it was mating season. :/ and then we had a burning desire to go to HUSTLER and to eat at HOOTERS. since i've never been. and we bought shirts at hustler and werent even allowed on the third floor. hmph. we werent as caniving as jessie so we blew that one. and then hooters time..and got hit on by crazy guys who sent there waitress to buy us drinks...isnt that only in the movies? mmkay whateva. weirdos. theeeen...we had a romantic evening in the hottub.
and now she's gone. and im sad. and i work tomarrow. summer so far deserves a cookie.
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okay so wow.. im at work..and i look up and see balloons covering the window. i was just like what the...and then i walked outside and andrew is standing there with roses..yeah. it would be like the cutest thing iffff i wanted him to do that. or if i even wanted him. haha goodness...my boss was like staring at me the whole time like who the hell is that and what is he doing here. haha it was funny. so he gave me a cd adapter for my car and a burned cd. okay okay its super nice. whatever. i dont know i dont think he gets it. hmm...it was a nice thought though.
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[13 Jun 2005|04:40pm] |
i feel like going to yuma! and doing really cool stuff! i dont know what! but i do!
im just bored of everything! i need fun! and im gonna exclamate everything!!! im at work! and im bored! and im being a computer hog! and i ate the muffin left over from a staff meeting! oh weeeell!
KIMS COMING SOON! WE ARE GONNA GO TO THE DEL MAR FAIR! AND GO SHOPPING! AND GO TO THE BEACH! AND AND...DO COOL STUFF!
AND MY BIRTHDAY IS ON SUNDAY! WHICH IS LAME SINCE ITS ON FATHERS DAY! HMM! I DONT LIKE TO SHARE!
OKAY! BYE!
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okay...i may be new to this whole dating thing...but...if you hang out with someone twice. does that automatically give them the right to think they have dibs on all your weekend plans? as in...i saw star wars with this kid and now EVERY weekend he's asking to do stuff..not just one day in the weekend. but ALL days ..friday, saturday, sunday and so on and so forth even on the weekdays..he lives in coronado. which means 40 mins. away. ive only known him for like a couple of weeks jeeze. there i go makin excuses ...dammit! oh well whatever.
haha my cell phone fell into the toilet...long story...kinda gross too.
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